A few months back I heard about this year’s TEDX Cherry Creek Women 2018 Event and found myself intrigued by the possibility of contributing. A friend of mine had told me about the submissions, and I must admit, I felt a bit intimidated. I questioned myself. Why
would I think I could do this? Was this an ego decision? Would I measure up? Then I allowed myself to ponder this year’s theme: Showing Up. The reasons behind my decision to submit my application became clear.
Several years ago, I wrote a song entitled, “Be”. It’s about loving myself as I am, where I am; accepting that where I am on my personal journey in this life is perfect as it is; acknowledging that I have much to learn; and to share my voice with the world. It was the
lyrics of this song that helped me make the decision to submit my application. I know that this song needs to be heard by women everywhere and that no matter where we are on our journey this message is relevant and it’s for all of us. I wanted to share this song with the world and hiding behind my insecurities and silly excuses did not serve me or this song or the women of the world. So I submitted my application.
When I received word that I was accepted to be an Entertainer, I was elated. Then, those nagging insecurities crept right back in. These are some very powerful women. The women leading, speaking, performing, and attending this event — they have big dreams and goals, powerful intentions, and knowledge to share. What knowledge do I have to share? Why did I ever think I could contribute in a bold way? The lyrics came back in to guide me once again: “Be more love, shine more light, be who I came here to be…” That’s right. I don’t have to be perfect or some other version of myself. I just need to be willing to show up as I am right now, and that will be more than enough.
As I prepare for this event, I have much work to do. I have my music and I have my message. To be prepared to accept and add to the energy flow of this event will be an experience I am sure I will cherish for a lifetime. Sharing a part of myself and my music with these powerful women is a gift. I am doing inner work with myself to prepare the vessel. Knowing the exchange of energy will be palpable on November 30th excites me and uplifts me. And all the while my insecure side screams in my ear: “What were you thinking?” But my heart quiets that voice and reminds me to keep showing up.